the following truncated from a letter to friends
when i talk to people they invariably ask two questions, sometimes simultaneously, “how are you?” and “what have you been doing?”.
the “how” is actually easier to answer, as it is always some form of “going with the flow”. That sentiment, in general, has been my mantra for as long as i can remember. My tagline (since my beginnings on the internet) has been “out of order, but not chaos” - it is how my memory works, it is how my life works - things happen (some through my diligence, but many out of my control) and i respond accordingly to the best of my abilities at the time. bla,bla,bla…Memory seems to work the same way - i don’t plan what memory pops into my head at any moment, but the memory serves as a way for me to review where i am ( sort of like a chapter preface in a book). so in general, i’m doin’ groovy and going with the flow.
the “what” fluctuates, both cyclically and seasonally. i know people who are obsessed with “getting things done”, like long lists that can be checked off of “todo” apps, people whose waking hours are spent checking out then merging tasks in apps like SourceTree or GitHub, and people who are “seeing people” and signing papers and making the money flow. This makes the minutes and hours very accountable. i have been there and done that. it is mind expanding and diligence developing. until now. i was given the opportunity to step out of that cycle. now am doing nothing accountable.
i have an apple cider drink on waking (1tbs. lime juice, 1tbs. apple cider vinegar, 1/4 tsp. cream of tartar)
i meditate for around 1/2 hour
as i drink a green smoothie breakfast
i stare out the windows and watch the trees blossom while birds and squirrels and wild bunnies pass underneath them
i notice a number of blooming dandelions that will be used for dinner greens
i water the house plants
i spend a couple of hours at the gym loosening arthritic limbs
i read wonderful, wonderful books and perhaps order more on Amazon
i watch the sun pierce through the pines on its descent, creating long shadows
instead of tasks i have intentions
like this one - i will find one new thing of interest each day
for many days it is just a photograph that expresses a new look at an ordinary thing
today it is reading some of Marcus Aurelius Meditations
i close the blinds for the day
i meditate for around 1/2 hour
and sometimes
i write
from the inside out
